Broken. And all MY fault.

{Sigh}

This is so pathetic.

Maybe I should go back to emo.

Being NOT emo is causing everyone trouble.

First I forgot about a secret I was not supposed to tell.

And then, I told it.

Then, Celestine, Victim, is struck, real hard.

And it's just before exam.

And Caryl whom I swore not to tell the secret, is at fault.

And It's ALL MY FAULT!

I AM SUCH AN IDIOT!

WHY do these things HAPPEN?

Why ME?!

WHY?

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This sucks.

1.If I NOT be myself and be emo, my friends don't like it.

2.If I be myself, everyone is affected.

Which is better?

Obviously 1 right?

Duh.

I should've seen that.

I keep hurting people.

WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH ME?!

Christina always is happy.

Like no problem apart from b*ys of course.

I'm so jealous.

Why can't I swap.

Why can't I just swap for ONE day.

Just ONE.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!

Why?

Why is it like this.

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We had exam today.

It wasn't TOO bad.

At least I finished the paper.

Time was really tight.

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I can tell that Caryl doesn't trust me much any more.

I have been trying to find smaller dog earings for her.

Alsagoff caught her for having too big earings.

Apparently, they were hummongous for her.

Then, today when I expressed the frustration of not being able to find the earings, she half-freaked after this sentence:

"I PROMISE to find them."

She went "Don't promise anything!"

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I deserve it.

And the Jasper thing is stronger than ever.

Shit.

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JUST LET ME DIE WHY DON'T YOU?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY ME?

I hate me,

Kelly the betrayer.